A reply to a reposted Gab of mine (from this morning) on Poast...
"Most people get broken by "experience of hell" and frankly even by just experiencing harsh survival. After that, there's no reasoning about relative good/bad for them, they're just broken and become malignant."
I don't think so. I think there's a LOT of stupid fuckin psychopaths in the world... and they learn to IMITATE victimization... they PRETEND that they've been through hell, when in reality... for most of them... the hardest thing they've ever faced is a fuckin mirror.
Trauma creates resonant memories, they don't fade, they reflect off themselves and restructure accordingly, like using parity sets to prevent bit level corruption.
Not only are the memories effectively permanent, they continually taint every new memory you make with the constant recollection recycling.
The ones who become "malignant" who get bitter and angry and stupid, they are usually the ones FAKING IT and when they DON'T get something out of their efforts to fake it, well, then they get mean, violent... they lash out at the world because it does not meet the expectation of the fantasy they try to play out.
When someone is truly traumatized, they usually shut down and don't do much of anything... again, because it was hell. Simply existing in a state of NOT hell, can be, quite blissful.
And if you're in a state of suspended bliss, then you simply don't do much in the world. You withdraw from society because you can find everything they create and crave at the tip of your imaginative tongue, covered in endless emotional taste buds. Autonomic self-satiation makes most of your world rather moot. You often describe this state of euphoric lack of self as "shock".
It's the difference between living as a recluse and living like a drama whore... the later of which isn't real damage, they're just angry that pretending to be damaged isn't getting them what they want, because they become addicted to using and abusing people for gain... and the only way to cover that shit up, if you get called out as an unrepentant loser... is by pretending to be a victim.
I've been through lots of hell states through my life... they only make me appreciate the "silence" that much more. It's like being a loner, but enjoying it, rather than getting bitter and butthurt about it...
It's the difference between being one of the "cool kids" and being one of the "loser kids" who are borderline retarded, but don't want to be lumped in with the retards, so they try and emulate the "cool kids"... badly... while feigning self-victimization when it doesn't pan out like their slothful fantasies.
It's dangerous because it can lead to schizophrenia in the "loser kids" who are continually driven to try and "prove" their imagined abuse for the imagined "expectation" of "help".
Real victims aren't interested in "proving" abuse, they don't want to wear it like a costume around in front of others, because they're already wearing it in every inch of their perception and they know that normies don't notice and don't listen and don't really care... because they understand that normies are what led to the abuse... they know they don't listen, because they perpetuate it for their gain.
The crazies would have us seriously believe that normie people with normie problems want or need to help the things they walk all over... they don't. The only time they do, is when they're trying to virtue signal to others, again... as a means of gain.
The smartest of the losers learn how to exploit that as a means of "getting back" at normies.
The cool kids try to warn people... even against their own interests.
I mean, look at me, it's NOT in my personal interests to be on the right, to be conservative. I could GAIN so much MORE from the left... but it would come at the expense of everyone else's shit. I would become no different than those who abused me.
I'd become the one walking all over others for imagine superiority.
You see "normal" is always "abuse"... it's just, which brand?
I'd rather not have mine becoming the abuser type, even if it means destroying it entirely. I can always rebuild it... and better.
It's a simple metric of reality... evil cannot create, it can only imitate.
I can create, so I have no want nor need to try and emulate or imitate normie abuse. There's no need to "get back" at something already effectively dead inside. You might just as well be lashing out at a brick fuckin wall because it won't give you a hug.
You can't expect what isn't there... it'll just make you crazy if you do.
Stop being a loser, stop trying to "get back" at shit... cause even if you do, you just replace one evil with another.
Crabs in a bucket.
takes a long toke and elevates above them all
