Oatmeal Joey Arnold (@JoeyArnoldVN)

Like Sunday School with distraction or it may not be distraction. But this theme of what I call distraction has been happening each Sunday for many months perhaps since like earlier in 2021 if not earlier. So during the first five months of this year, it started and or maybe it started before that but especially after the summer is what I think. But it is hard to say if it is good or bad. But in front of me. I see it. I do not want to contrast or compare or conflate it with a show I am watching, Big Sky. I see Ronald but that is not me. Pretend I did not make a reference. I did not say anything. But to continue the conversation from Sunday School, life is about choices and stuff. But I find it hard to sort out. My excuse, be it good and or bad, is I am busy. But my weakness is if I was asked to. I want to and I do not want to. The best of two worlds. I should talk more about this. I have written about and have talked about related matters going back like twenty years or a very long time. I have many different thoughts about life choices, goals, dreams, etc. I think about it a lot sometimes. But there are so many variables. I want this. But I want that. And what we want in life may not be what we need. And others may not want it. And life can involve compromise. Something can be better than nothing perhaps. Or maybe not. But generally, that is true in theory at least that something is better than nothing. So, act. Participate. Interact. Take it a step at a time. You think you can get this but in reality might only be able to get this other thing. So, you can try and may fail. But at least no regret. I say this to me relating to many things. I am afraid and not afraid. I was choosing to make time to do more. To date more. I am not. That was like a New Years Resolution. I am not making time for that. I make lists. I made lists regarding things I want and do not want in me and others. But am I trying too hard? Do I want too much? Are my standards too high? Am I too closed minded or open minded? More thoughts on this to continue. I am still in deep thought regarding all of it. I am afraid and not afraid. I am many things at the same time. I feel things. I think things. But I am also very busy or not. But I want to finish things first or finish some things first at least.