TheBeard (@MoBobo)

I’m in dire need friends. I might have a month before I loose my house unless my disability benefits start soon but I never get my hopes up anymore. I’m behind on medical bills so now they won’t try to do a nerve blocker to see which never is cause my pain. So much for their oath, so I’m in constant pain and can not work even though I’ve tried twice. The pain causes my anxiety to go through the roof so I end up mentally paralyzed. As a man I’ve never reached out for help just buried it deep inside but sometimes just got to admit when it’s too much. The pain some days is so extreme that certain thoughts come through my mind because I just want it to end. I’d work if I could since I have all my left but now I feel emasculated due to not being able to do things I once could or easily do. I don’t have many friends or family to ask for help since my sister was diagnosed with Lupus recently so I try to be there for her. I just don’t know what to do at this point.